IF I SAID IF...

           Katanya, berandai-andai itu sebenarnya nggak boleh. Tapi berklarifikasi; selama andai itu diucapkan untuk merencanakan sesuatu yang akan datang, diperbolehkan. Yang nggak boleh itu kalau mengucapkan seandainya untuk menyesali sesuatu yang telah berlalu. Seolah-olah menyalahkan takdir yang telah menjadikannya begitu.

Tapi ternyata, aku menyukai untuk bergumam kata seandainya. Entah untuk past ataupun future. Semua seakan sudah terkendalikan oleh suasana, ketika aku menyukai lagu yang berjudul serupa: IF. Yang dinyanyikan Park Jin Young, untuk dijadikan soundtrack drama Dream High. Nusuk. Aku nggak yakin, kalau liriknya sama atau tidak dengan suasana saat ini. Apapun alasannya, akhir-akhir ini aku suka lagu itu dan bisa mendengarkannya lebih dari dua kali sehari. :D

Lagunya bisa didengar di sini

Ini liriknya:

오늘도 네 소식에 눈물이 흘렀어
너무 궁금했지만 듣고선 후회했어
행여 네 소식 들어도
이젠 말하지 말라고
나는 들을 자신이 없다고
자꾸 눈물이 흐르면
아직 못 잊었단 얘기죠
다른 사람이 싫으면
그댈 못 잊었단 얘기죠
꽤 오랜 시간이 흘러
잊었다 말하고 싶었지만
그게 아니죠
함께 걷던 거리를
우연히 지났어
함께 걷던 모습이
또 눈 앞에서 번졌어
다신 이곳을 지나지 말아야지 생각했어
아픔을 감당할 자신이 없어
자꾸 눈물이 흐르면
아직 못 잊었단 얘기죠
다른 사람이 싫으면
그댈 못 잊었단 얘기죠
꽤 오랜 시간이 흘러
잊었다 말하고 싶었지만
그게 아니죠
못 잊은 거죠
난 아직 그댈 사랑하는 거죠
그 어떤 사랑도 결국
시간이 지나면 모두
잊혀진다는 말은 뭐죠
자꾸 눈물이 흐르면
아직 못 잊었단 얘기죠
다른 사람이 싫으면
그댈 못 잊었단 얘기죠
꽤 오랜 시간이 흘러
잊었다 말하고 싶었지만
그게 아니죠
못 잊은거죠

Yap, karena aku males buat nyantumin huruf romanjinya :p , jadi buat yang ingin tahu artinya, ini ada terjemahannya versi English:

Today, just hearing news about you,

I shed tears once again

I was so curious to hear

only to feel the waves of regrets

From now on,  I dont want to hear about you

I don’t have the guts to face it.

Flowing tears mean you still weren’t forgotten

If I don’t want anyone else, then that means I did not forget you

I wanted to say that many days went by to forget you but…

It couldn’t be done

I happened to walk the street we walked before

Images of us walking together are vivid in my thoughts.

I made up my mind to never come here again

I don’t have the courage to fight the pain I feel inside

Flowing tears mean you still weren’t forgotten

If I don’t want anyone else, then that means I did not forget you

I wanted to say that many days went by to forget you but…

It couldn’t be done

I can’t forget you

Because I still love you

The saying, “Anybody’s love will eventually be forgotten over time..”

says who?

Flowing tears mean you still weren’t forgotten

If I don’t want anyone else, then that means I did not forget you

I wanted to say that many days went by to forget you but…

It couldn’t be done

I can’t forget you.

Mellow ya? Hehe. Aku paling suka kata-kata di lirik reffnya, terutama kalau dinyanyiin Wooyoung 2PM: “Flowing tears mean you still weren’t forgotten. If I don’t want anyone else, then that means I did not forget you. I wanted to say that many days went by to forget you but…It couldn’t be done, I can’t forget you.”

Saat ini, aku nggak tahu tentang ‘andai’ dari lagu ini untuk nanti atau yang lalu. Tapi, lagu ini kembali memikirkanku untuk mengandaikan sesuatu yang baru. Seandainya, suatu hari nanti, memori bisa memilih. Untuk memilih melupakannya secara perlahan, atau mengingatnya terus secara utuh.